God Can Sure Ask a Lot

Auuuuustralia..

Quick summary: I believe God is calling me to attend the Hillsong College in Australia.

(http://www2.hillsong.com/college/home.asp)

Now, where was I? Oh that's right: Auuuuuuuuustraila.

Why does it still seem so im-friggin-possible?! I mean I talk about it like it's going to happen for sure and that the money for it is just going to magically appear out of no where but I still can't really imagine it happening.

It's like this. Say your mum walks into the room and says "Hey sweetie. You have a dentist appointment tomorrow morning at 9am. Make sure and floss"

Now you have no problem imagining or believing it's going to happen. Just how you know in your head that you're going to wake up tomorrow, you get it in your head that you are going to the dentist... no biggie.

Now imagine your mum walked up to you and says "Hey darling, I just bought a lotto ticket and I'm going to be winning the lottery tomorrow."

Although this may not correlate well because me planning on doing something crazy, and me hoping something crazy will happen are quite different. But stuff like that just sounds so outlandish you can't imagine it until it's actually happening and blowing your mind.

Basically, I am terrified. For oh so many things. Firstly that I won't be able to raise the money to go and secondly that I will raise the money to go and be a billion miles away from my friends and family. (Pardon the extreme exaggeration)

And BECAUSE of this crazy Australia thing I have to decide if I want to keep going to school this coming semester or get a second job and start saving up for that.. uhggg. Welp. I guess just continue to pray with me on this wacked out journey. Once I start getting my act together and plan for the madness, I shall be making vlogs.

So if you're for some odd reason still reading this and have any interest in that, keep checking in and I'll keep you updated.

kthxbywe ;)

I'm gonna be Tia Dalma for Halloween!

I may not be smart but at least I know how to social network.

Uhggg... Boys

What in the world is my obsession with BOYS.

I means seriously!

I used to think that I was so much better than all the random ditzy teenage girls roaming th valley but I am so not.

I think every single guy that I have a crush on that I'm in love with them! I think when me and my last boyfriend broke up, I only cried twice then I was fine the rest of the time. I was CONVINCED that he was the one and that we were going to get married and have babies. But now that we're just friends I don't think we could have worked out... well obviously we didn't.

If you're a single, cute, straight, guy I would steer clear of me because it's free range and everyone is a target.

And if you think that this is fun, THINK AGAIN. I hateeeeee it so much. I feel like a 12 year old girl who just realized that she has feelings.

I better take some kind of fast or something.. Hahaha like I have all these dates lined up or something! How can I train my brain to stop dreaming about having a boyfriend??

All my friends are getting married and having kids, maybe that's why.

I just don't think a 19 year old chick should be worried about this.

My Favorite Quotes

"With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible"
-Matthew 19:26

"People hate me because I am a multifaceted, talented, internationally known, famous, genius"
-Jerry Lewis

"We buy objects not because we need them but because we want others to know we can afford them"
-Thorstein Veblen

"It's not what you're country can do for you, it's what your country can steal from other countries"
-Jon Lajoie

"When life gives you lemons, throw them at people who own expensive cars"
-A 1995 Camry owner

"Acclimatize, but don't you lose the plot"
-Brandon Flowers

"You almost knocked over your alcohol with your knife"
-Columbus (Zombieland)

"What the hell is she gonna do with the pearls?"
-Maren Maclean

"You're more of a let down then fruit stripped gum"
-Peter Griffin

"Hi, I'm Kirt Humel and I will be auditioning for the roll of kicker"
-Kirt Humel (Glee)

"Behind the clouds is the sun still shining..." -Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

"That guinea pig was my entire life! Taste my bisexual furry!"
-Zachary Quinto (Off Centre)

"Bob? Bob?! I don't know no Bob. Hey there citizen. Would you give me a hand with my super suction ears? It seems to have malfunctioned."
-Larry The Cucumber

"Alright, let's see some frolicking"
-Subway Employee

"Mr. shirt, you can talk"
-Adam Smith

"Genie... you're free"
-Aladdin

"DREAM even though it's too late. DANCE even though you're body aches"
-Unknown

"Fight! Fight! Somebody else! Not me! I don't wanna die!"
-Adam Smith

"I was never really insane except upon occasions when my heart was touch" For Zach
-E.A Poe

"Love! Love until the night collapses!"
-Pablo Neruda

"I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved."
-Omer B. Washington

‎"When you get there. There's no there there. But there will be a pool." -David Zucker

"I'm the best there is at what I do but what I do best isn't very nice."
-Wolverine

"Do grown-ups even care about right and wrong?"
-The little girl from Better off Ted

"She was a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was sad. And that’s important, you know." About Marylin Monroe

"We never really grow up; we only learn how to act in public"

""Welcome to King Burger where we could do it your way but don't get crazy." -Bon Qui Qui

"There's no way we're losing to Slytherin, Ravenclaw, orrrrr... Jiggilypuff." -Dumbledore (A Very Potter Musical)

‎"A man does not call a line crooked unless he has some idea of a straight line" -C.S Lewis

"If you think nobody cares if you're alive, try missing a couple of car payments." -Earl Wilson

Original Quote

"Listen to your heart, but be sure to check with your brain."

Why Are We Afraid of the Dark?

Why are we afraid of the dark?

The dark is where the scary things happen.. bad things. unfortunate things.

We're scared because we can't see. Because monsters and villains have an advantage over us.

But if we have out light, we have power. It reveals the plainness of our surroundings. No longer helpless from the things of the darkness.

But without our light we're merely sitting ducks. Simply victims of the enemy. We may not even be aware the awful place we've been lead to because we cannot see. Or maybe we could take advantage of the darkness and use it from our own gain away from the eyes of others.

At some point while stumbling through the pitch black night, all in a daze you will bump into someone carrying a mirror reflecting a light from within them. With it they will shed light onto you like a waterfall. You will see things that you don't believe. Things you won't want to believe. Some things that will make you vulnerable. Will you push this person away and continue your life tripping around accepting life as only what it seems to be? Or will you too grab a mirror and see the world for what it is? ... the truth?

At church we were talking about what are spiritual gifts are..

I have come to the disappoint conclusion that I am a chameleon.

Loads of your friends always tell you how amazing you are and how talented you are. As great as hearing half hearted compliments is, not a huge fan.

Now this is the part where I get to talk about how amazing I am!!

These are the things I am currently involved in:
-Church worship team as a vocalist

-Playwriting

-Orchestra (cello)

-Youth Leader (church)

-Senate Representative

-My weekend: Popcornopolis!

I know I make it sound like I'm some kind of over achiever but I most definitely am not. I am a huge bum. My nights are consumed with watching television on Netflix and Hulu until I can't stay conscious anymore. (Oh if you're looking for some good shows to watch here are some of my favs: Veronica Mars, The IT Crowd, Pushing Daisies, Eureka, Avatar: The Last Air-bender, Heroes.)

Here are some of my talents:

Acting, singing, dancing, cello, piano, guitar, writing, drawing, making t-shirts, shot put, discus, hammer, basketball, stage makeup.

I like saying this stuff out loud because it makes me sound so much more awesome than I really am. Don't get me wrong, I am pretty friggin cool but I have a mediocre streak. I love to do sooooo many different things that there is no way that I could actually be very good at any of them.

Er go, the chameleon. I suppose I am pretty fantastical at being friendly and social but I can't exactly get a career in that, can I? *sigh* I hope I can find a goal/dream soon.

I just feel like I could go any direction at this point!!