We Don't Know How to Wait

I really do try to do the whole goody good Christian thing, but it's soooo hard.

Somedays I hardly even try because it seems impossible to do the things I know I should be doing. I'm constantly thinking about what Paul wrote in Romans 7:14-17

"The law is good, then. The trouble is not with the law but with me, because I am sold into slavery, with sin as my master. I don't understand myelse at all, for I really want to do what is right, but I don't do it. Instead, I do the very thing I hate. I know perfectly well that what I am doing is wrong, and my bad conscience shows that I agree that the law id good. But I can't help myself, because it is sin inside me that makes me do evil thing."


And then he continues in verse 21:


"It seems to be a fact of life that when I want to to do what is right, I inevitable do what is wrong."


I think about this so much because I feel like this is my life. I looking into the face of a situation and I know exactly what I should do, and I even want to do. I try to get myself to do it, but in the end I am consumed by the thought of how I feel right now...


I think that's the problem with this world right now. We are so devoted to feeling good right now. Waiting for anything is often seen as silly and ridiculous. Waiting to date until your older, waiting until your 21 to drink, waiting until you married to have sex, waiting at a red light instead of speeding through a yellow one, holding back on the treats until a special occasion, waiting until you have enough money to buy something expensive..


The repercussions to all of these things are negative and can sometimes ruin your life. But we just CAN'T WAIT... and in no way am I condemning people. I do these exact same things. The media and my colleagues have brain washed me into just accepting social norm. I can hardly say brain washed because I gave in so easily.

When turning to a life a Christ, we're asked to do things we deep down know we should not do. But we do it until it doesn't seem wrong anymore. Until it's so easy to do that you would it continually without having to be convinced in the slightest.

I don't even know why I'm writing this blog. Am I complaining, condemning, blaming,  venting.. I guess I'm just upset with myself. For some reason I though following Christ would give you some special powers to let you do whatever you want. All it does is give you a conscience and tools to being Christ.. I guess I'm just not utilizing my tools very well.